Round 9 Confessionals

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Not happy that Bud was booted. I voted in the minority alongside Bud and that normally means I'm the next person to go. Juice has told me he doesn't want to see me go next but I don't believe him. I'm pissed at Stephen for not giving me a heads up about what was going on when I've been nothing but nice to him and have told him I have his back, etc. Clearly the dude does not have mine.

Hooker even voted Jordan. Now, I trust Hooker, but lately he has been pretty shady and reserved and I know he's strategizing behind my back. I don't like it at all. Now I have to hope I am not next.

Whenever I find myself in a minority position I am always afraid to try and form an alliance to try and get myself into the majority. Because clearly the people who voted together talk and they'll rat me out to one another. They can easily say that RB went to them and tried to form an alliance with them etc. So I'm feeling pretty shitty right now. I'm afraid to try and form an alliance to get myself back into this game. I'm just gonna sit here and talk to people when I get the chance and hope they want to keep me around and have someone better to boot than myself.

I'm just so annoyed that Juice did this because he is doing nothing but handing other people the numbers unless of course there is some huge alliance I am not aware of. But again, how do I go about discovering if there is? No one is going to want to talk about it if they are in it. Everyone sits on their fucking asses thinking they are comfortable until it is too late and they are blindsided by an alliance they never saw coming. I'll be sure to make a point of this to Tucker. I sort of already did open up the lines of communication to him and told him that there is an inner circle in this game just like in FvF and we're not a part of it. He promised we'd talk about it soon. Not happy at all right now. I liked being in the majority and I do not like being in the minority.

[RB]

I wanted to wait until the profanity filter was turned off until I wrote my next confessional. Now that it is and while I wait for results I might as well right one.

I had a conversation with Tucker and it really really pissed me off. I wish I had wrote my confessional right afterwards but I had to go to work. I was fuming mad. He's so pompous and feeling on top of the world so he's being a complete douchebag towards me. I try to talk strategy with the dude but he is not wanting to have any of it and then has the nerve to demand that I name names and then perhaps something can be organized. NO. That's not how it works asshole. I don't go naming names to people who are not trying to be nice to me and who aren't trying to talk strategy with me just so they can go and use whatever I say to them against me. Fuck him.

So I've made it my goal to get rid of him now. It was before...but it's totally ON now. I have to do something or else I'll be booted anyways. So I figured I might as well try and talk to Juice and Stephen. They both seemed pretty open to the idea and I presented my evidence against Tucker and brought his connection to Jordan to their attention. Hopefully I can turn some heads in his direction and make him the target if we lose the challenge.

I decided I can't just sit back and be afraid to talk strategy with people now that I voted in the minority. I realized that my connections haven't changed even though I voted in the minority. I still have stronger connections with Juice, Hooker, and Stephen than I do with Tucker and Jordan so I am going to try and focus on those relationships that may actually give me a fighting chance to stay in the game.

I also gave my all during the immunity challenge. I think I found all the words. My tribe clearly didn't want to work on it together. It was a selfish round for us all. I hope it pays off and I'm rewarded for my efforts with a nice immunity win.

That's where I stand right now, fighting for my life in this game. Trying to step up in the strategy department. Hopefully I've made a strong enough case to breaking up Tucker/Jordan.

[RB]

My tribe won the immunity challenge. I didn't win the power but I'm kind of glad. The important thing was that my tribe won immunity.

Juice won the power and sent himself to exile.

We're all very curious about the message in the bottle that the other tribe had and we suspect it might be a person returning to the game, a second boot, or the bootee takes someone with them.

Hopefully merge is soon. I don't know if my plan to boot Tucker will work if we lose and I could very well leave. I don't want to leave. I'm not ready yet. I'm trying to play the game but people aren't very receptive to my ideas. Juice, Hooker and Stephen all seemingly want me around but will they really stick their necks out to keep me or will they say there is nothing they can do to save me?

Anyways...I'm safe this round. I'm happy. I worked hard for it and so did the rest of my tribe. If we stay tribes I feel confident my tribe can win again.