Episode 1 - Confessionals

[Tom]

I've had way too many freaking conversations, and mixing them with regular confessionals in a single thread will drive me mad by round 3. So I'm gonna organize a little better.

[Tom]

(Reposting what I wrote last night in the other thread):


OK, now that the game has started and things are A C T U A L L Y happening, I shall post some of my long-awaited thoughts.

So, wow. Am I really here? Am I really back again, trapped within an iSurv1vor journal until the day my virtual torch is snuffed? It's kinda hard to believe, actually. After the All Stars fiasco, I really thought I was done.

All Stars was tough on me. I went into that game being Mr. Alumni, Mr. Blog Organizer, Mr. Giant Golden Star. And a third of the way into the game, I got blindsided into oblivion. It sucked. Hardcore. Maybe it's silly, maybe I'm weird, but it took a couple weeks to get over that. Really. It became even tougher to see my old TRIFORCE allies do so well, while I was stuck on the sidelines. I hated feeling worthless, kicked to the curb. After all...I was Mr. Alumni.

When Fans vs Faves rolled around, I took a pass. At first I was psyched to get in the action again. To redeem myself. But then I took a couple giant steps back and said, you know what, I'm gonna let someone else get a try in my place. So heroic of me, I know. <3

I didn't play Fans vs Faves last summer and instead got to devote a boatload of time to my novel. Nearly a year later, I'm wrapping up my "final" draft! I feel what I've got thus far sounds pretty good, and will leave it like this until I find a publisher. Which, Lord-willing, won't be too, too long of a wait.

Now, to this game. Almost two years after my early exit from All Stars, I feel like I'm in a healthy head-space to give iSurv1vor another go. And it's all about having a good time. Forget redemption. Forget the notion that I'm "worthless" and a "failure" if I finish in 18th place again. So what? I love iSurv1vor, and I'm honored to be playing for a third time, representing Good in this cosmic ORG battle. And I'm going to have a blast, whether I'm voted out first, last, or somewhere in between.

Make no mistake about this though: as with any game I've ever played, I want to win. Just like last time, I feel I have a huge target on my back, but I'm not gonna let that defeat me. People probably expect me to be everything they've heard about me: truthful, loyal to the utter fault.

But I wanna win. And I guarantee you I can catch some folks TOTALLY off-guard if I need to break my word to get myself further. I'll do it. I'm ready to do whatever it takes to get myself to the end. And have some fun along the way.

Can't wait to see how things shake out. Gonna try to do my first video confessional (of hopefully many) sometime tomorrow and talk about some of the crazies in this game, so wo0t.

Thanks again Sandy for the spot! Here goes nothin'.

[Tom]

I like my tribe. Have talked with most of them to this point, and I just get a cheery vibe from everyone. Good stuff. I think this challenge is going well so far. Allan said he heard the Villains are already done, which, I don't know what to make of that, but I still think our design is good. I love all the various pictures we've taken of ourselves. Somehow I got roped into writing "DONNA" on my heart while everyone else got actual heroic attributes put on theirs. lawlz.

Have I mentioned my affinity for "lawlz"? Thank you, Kimber, and the lovely experience that was iSurv1vor: All Stars for introducing "lawlz" into my daily vocabulary. So much better than the cliche "lol" or "haha." It just flows from one's tongue like honey from a glassblown jar. Say it with me, will you?

lawlz

Amazing.

Anywho, that's the first time I've ever said "anywho." Don't think that's gonna stick quite as hard as "lawlz" has. lawlz.

I have this running joke with Allan that Ashley frightens me. I never spoke to her during All Stars and, to my knowledge, have never spoken to her period. Just one of those things. Allan said he always mocks her because I said I didn't remember who she was in one of my funtastic Recap Videos. (This one, which I posted in the FvF forum.)

So yeah, Ashley's (playfully?) ticked that I do not know who she is. Haha, I messaged her earlier because I haven't seen her on AIM, so hopefully that will ease the (playful?) tension.

Ashley's been the least active one of the group thus far, so I'd be totally fine with her going. And Allan seems cool with that too since he's all paranoid people will be after him because of their relationship outside the game. So...we'll see.

Ugh, I hope we win this challenge. Please no Villain Domination. Gag.

[Tom]

Well, our flag and writeup is completed and everything looks AMAZING if I do say so myself. Tucker did an incredible job with background, and Stephen aka Photoshop Guru did phenomenally with the HEROES font, torches, logo, etc. And the pictures! I love love love everyone's pictures. I'm totally gonna save that flag on my computer and look fondly on it as I grow as old as Donna. <3

It's not that "flashy" of a flag, but I think its simplicity is what makes it so great. The villains might have a flashier flag, but there's no way it can be as personal with all our photos or as filled with meaning with all the listed heroic characteristics. Just no way. And I think that will be the difference.

I've gone to tribal council first in each of my two prior iS ventures. Optimistic it won't be 3 for 3.

In other news, I talked briefly with Stephen tonight about a foursome involving us two and our lady counterparts (Morgan and Erin). I was glad to hear it come from HIS mouth, because I'd already discussed the possibility with Morgan and Erin. The circle is complete. I think we'd be an amazing foursome in this game. But if we start standing out too early, we're screwed. So that's something to be careful of. We definitely need other allies. I love Erik and Tucker. I feel like I share a lot in common personality-wise with each of them. So hopefully there's some allies right there.

If we were to somehow lose this challenge (NO WAY), I feel like the fall should go to either Clayton, Jamie, or Ashley. They haven't been around much and really didn't participate much aside from their pictures.

But we're not gonna lose. I mean, have you SEEN our flag?!

[Tom]

HEROES WIN!

I seriously had a blast with that challenge, and am so glad we won. We deserved it. Everyone pitched in with their picture, and it was so beautiful to watch come together. Yay hearts and happiness. <333

Definitely a relief to not have to worry about being the first one voted out! Wonder which Villain will take that honor...

This aint gonna be like the real Survivor: HvV. This will be HERO DOMINATION. Grant us blessings till the merge, dear sweet Donna.

[Tom]

lawlz at the crybaby villains

lawlz lawlz lawlz

[Juice]

Just a headsup. I'm playing a drinking game tonight and Tom's journal will be the main factor. Everytime I see you say "lawlz" I shall be taking a drink! This will only count for confessionals. If I went into every conversation thread to search for your lawlzing, I'd be dead within a matter of minutes! So be prepared for me to post how many lawlz are in each confessional cuz I gotta keep track. This should be fun

[jordan]

i'm going to do the same game for jeffrey's journal every time he writes a ~

[Juice]

lmao jordan! looks like we'll both have alcohol poisoning by the end of the night!

[Juice]

9 lawlz already. Dammit Tom! This is either gonna be a really short night (me passing out) or its gonna be a long drunken one!

[Juice]

Oh and I sincerely hope you dont say lawlz in your videos -_-

[Tom]

lawlz you guys ~crack me up~ lawlz